Faceless Friday: Part 105

 

Holy crap it is Friday again… the week has flown by with packing and unpacking, driving and just, you know, having a complete overhaul of my life. This time last week I was writing Faceless Friday amongst boxes, getting ready to leave The Fixer’s state and come back to my own… and now I am here, and there are still boxes sitting around, but I have a bed and two lovely Beasts to give me cuddles and loving. So, even though my life has dramatically changed in the last week, there are still so many things to be grateful for, so let’s start this Faceless Friday.

Kindness and Generosity.  Last week The Fixer decided that he liked having “friends” at work more than he liked the fact that I gave up everything to be with him…. So I decided to move home.  I sent out a plea to friends and family to get me home and the response was overwhelming and FAST. Within two days all of you came up with enough money for me to rent a U-haul, have gas money, and money to get the dogs food (holy shit that stuff is EXPENSIVE, especially for two of them).  The response and love I received was immediate, and so appreciated that I have no idea how to really thank any of you.  THANK YOU with all that I have, and all that I am, THANK YOU.

Friendships. Break-ups be hard yo, but with the kindness and understanding of my friends it has not been as bad as I thought it would be.  People have reached out to me and filled my heart with love and hope and for that I am truly grateful.  The response through Craughing messages has been amazing and I want you all to know that I consider each and every one of you a friend.  You have been there for me when I didn’t feel like I had anyone, and that is a blessing.  It is also pretty damn amazing to know that if my friends need me I am actually here, and available for the first time in a long time.  We may be a band of misfits, or “The Dejected” (our new gang name), but together we are a fucking force. A FORCE.

Strength, Will and Determination.  When I moved in with The Fixer, almost two years ago, I knew that it was either going to be one of the best things that had happened to me, or a huge mistake.  I am inclined to say that even though the relationship went to shit that it was still one of the best things I have done in my life.  I needed that break, that healing time, to remind myself of who I really am.  And apparently I am the sort of girl that will no longer take shit, and can drive a HUGE U-Haul with two Beasts in tow when I need to. I have to say I feel pretty good about being able to take control of my life again. I have also left THREE glasses next to my bed because I can, and I may or may not have hung the toilet paper the “wrong way”. I got this.

The Beasts. The Beasts go on hunger strikes a lot, and I was really scared that they would not handle this change well at all, but we are all getting into the swing of things already, even though it will only be a week tomorrow. The Beasts are resilient and have enjoyed our time in the woods and sunshine while we figure out our next steps.  They are amazing and I love them with all I am, and it is amazing to have one on each side of me every time I rest my weary body and head.

Okay, let’s jump to the short list now so I can start rocking this day.

Coffee (my forever love), hazelnut creamer, money for dog food, being able to hang pictures level without a level like a BOSS, seeing and loving on The Twins and knowing that I get to be a part of their lives whenever I want, nightgowns, chain smoking, Diet Coke, WINE, Southern Comfort, smelly good things in the house, meds that actually work so I am not bedridden after moving my whole life, kindness, love, deep breaths and understanding, knowing where I stand and how to stand on my own, driving big trucks, clean bedding, and you dear Craughers, all of YOU!

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