I am about to do something completely (okay almost completely) out of character for me. I am moving to a different state. Yes, that is right, after two years of being stuck in this rut of depression, anxiety, court dates and heartache, I am packing up and getting outta town. My entire life has been spent in this area and the furthest I have lived from Momma Jo is twenty minutes away. All by choice. I do not have a problem with where I live, I have never been one of those people that are all “blah, blah, blah, I hate this place”, I have always known it was a choice to stay or to go.
And now I am going.
I will admit it is an abrupt decision, but damnit I have played by the “rules” since day one. I have done everything safely, or at least tried to, and quite honestly, it has gotten me nowhere. Everything I worked so hard to secure when I was younger, the house, the marriage, the cars, etc. never gave me the security I have always craved, and then when I lost all of those things I took a long hard look at myself and discovered I was only playing a part. Living by default. And my living by default broke me for awhile. A long while… and I do not want to be that broken girl any longer. I want to have a home again, to unpack all of the things I have been dragging around with me the last two years. I want to set new roots somewhere as the ones I had planted here have slowly withered and died.
So, that is what I am going to do. I am going to move forward, for the first time in a really long time.
6 thoughts on “MOVING!!!”
Congratulations! It takes a strong person to do as you intend. I wish you luck with the changes and happiness always.
Good for you! I’m cheering for you and a new beginning. I’m a new(er) follower and just wanted to say, having experienced spending some time planted where I don’t feel like I belong either…spread your wings, Baby!!! It sounds like it’s time. 🙂
I’m so excited for you. ALL I want is for YOU to be happy. If YOU are happy, then I’m happy for you. Only YOU know what is right for your heart, soul, and spirit. You’ve always got me here. Cuz, u r one HOESTY BIAAAACHHH!! Love u bunches!! xoxox
I am so happy for you my friend. You deserve all the happiness that this world has to offer. I love you and this brings me so much joy 🙂
Well done, you!! Adventure is always ahead – it’s not always easy, but it’s good. Big *HUGS* to you!
You are so brave! Good luck to you – I’m sure you’ll do well! I hope you find lots of happiness and peace in your new home!