This week has kicked my ass emotionally, and apparently physically as well seeing as I haven’t been able to sleep (okay so that’s not new), or eat (that is new). I am working really hard at remembering that I have no control, and that my power comes from God and the Universe… and that they know what I need… so, who am I to argue??
So, here we go, things that rocked my face off this past week:
My own bravery. I took a chance, put myself in a vulnerable spot, even when I knew it would get me nowhere. But at least I did it. At least I can say I tried. At least I did my best.
Kindness. Oh wow, how forever grateful I am when people show me kindness. I have some of the most amazing people in my life, cheering for me, encouraging me, and loving me unconditionally. I can say with full confidence that I am loved, and that there are people that DO know my worth, and know I am worth a lot more than I have received.
Escape and detachment. Both of these things are much needed with a lot of parts of my life and I am grateful for the opportunity to get out of this town and get my bearings again. Thank God for that.
Anger. Anger sometimes proves to protect our hearts from further pain if used correctly. I am not saying one should use anger to hurt others, or to be mean in anyway. I am saying that if you use anger as a way to protect yourself it’s not always so bad. Today I chose anger to help keep me detached. Hopefully tomorrow I can choose forgiveness… but until then anger will do.
Instincts. My instincts are pretty amazing when I listen to them. I am trying to remember that and get quite enough to hear them.
New razor blades. Yeah, it’s that important to me.
I know this list isn’t as long as usual, and there are a lot more things I am grateful for, but for now these are the most important from the week. And on that note I am off for the weekend. Hopefully Monday I will have a renewed heart.
Much love Craughers, and thank YOU for all of your support. Sincerely, you rock my face off. THANK YOU!